Merry Christmas :)

Firstly, Merry Christmas to all!!! :) The season of giving, what a wonderful day this is. And the next thing we know, it's another brand new year!!! :)

Had a great outing with Pipipapipoopoo today!!! Well, mainly shopping but shopping at Haji Lane was fun! Although I couldn't afford to buy anything in the end, I learnt a lot from this shopping spree haha!!!

Although I'm really sorry since I wasn't really very enthusiastic today due to a serious deprivation of sleep, but I really had an enjoyable time still! :)

Oh and I finally changed my blog skin! Think this new blog skin looks fabulous, although Candice said why is it still anime! But I really like Katekyo Hitman Reborn anyways, so it's perfectly fine k!

Cut my hair before going home for the Christmas party with the nice and tasty Korean barbecue and just drinking from the steamboat!

Once again, I spent a long time on facebook, but it's really fun so it's okay! :)

Had fun reminiscing with my another DEAREST cousin Sindy too, haha Christmas is always fun with cousins around!!!

Feeling rather pissed now since I noticed no one barely takes the initiative to organize outings. Everyone can be so stubborn together, maybe that's the reason why such a group can be formed in the first place.

So if it's always up to the same person to organize a outing where everyone can have fun, why does the the blame still lie on the same person when bad or no activities are organized. Isn't outings enjoyable because we enjoy one another's company, why did it turn out to be something that is hopeless without games or other activities.

So now communication lies on one and the blame also lies on one, but usually it's worth it since everyone turns out happy in the end.

But for goodness sake, not showing temper doesn't mean no temper, warnings and advices are not for show, the task of communication doesn't lie on one alone, and it's just ain't nice to continue depending and not being in the least appreciative.

I don't usually comment on small things because they are not worth the effort to emphasize on and strain relations, but sometimes when things become so obvious, is it so hard to empathize just a little.

I'm really thankful to Candice and Hong Wen for always going through the trouble of organizing outings for PPPPPP since everyone is always so busy to even attend one outing!!! So really thanks lots!!! :)

Although I know this message will probably never go through to the other party, it lightens my mood to just post about this.

No one likes to blame themselves, and that results in everything.

I want to stop complaining about anything since that further strains relations, so I shan't continue no more.

From next year on, I shall try my best not to criticize, condemn and complain. :)

Just received several messages that are all very heartwarming, and that sort of calmed my mind to stop thinking about stuffs that dampen moods. Thanks a lot!!! :)

Talking about moods, was casually scanning through my live journal last night, and read a private post that told me I would be pissed off if I read the post 10 years later, and since it had already been two years, I happily read the whole post. And wow, everything suddenly came back to life and I remembered so many things that resulted in what things are now.

Everything happens for a reason, and even though the heart doesn't remember, the body remembers. That's what xxxHolic taught and well, it's true no matter how I look at it.

I have learnt my lesson that it is impossible to change others, both for the better or for the worse, that's why frequency is so important in the first place. Changing frequencies is easy, but the heart and the basis of it remains the same. And this rejection by the heart would finally be felt by the body, resulting in a not so happy ending.

But optimistically saying, this reaction can only be for the better, at least now I understand why people become how they are now.

Nobody adopts a personality by any chance, anything one does is always a result of another's actions and this in turn influences and shapes one's self. A happy person is not always the one who had happy encounters throughout his phase of life, just like a sad person did not become sad because wants to be so.

Putting one self in another person's shoes might sound really easy, but how many of us really does so in the first place. I have attempted to do so and found many reasons for another's behavior but is it so hard to have the positions switched once in awhile. I don't mind you being judgmental when doing so and change your opinion after sincerely doing so.

The last thing I would do is to throw away a treasured friendship, and that's also the last thing I would even attempt to think about. But why attempt to hold on, when you have tried to done so for so many times, but not once reciprocated.

Yes, maybe reciprocated once, but seriously, is it so hard to hard to ask for a little more empathy. Stop being so judgmental for goodness sake, so it's true, it's just easier to find faults than merits, but understand another's fault is more vital, is it not?

Guess I'm really tired at how things are going, it's true I can simply put everything behind and see how the new year turns out, but it's always good to reflect on the current situation.

Fortunately, there's always the good side to look upon, all these taught me another lesson in life, and allowed me to honestly appreciate others. And with all my lovely family and friends living healthily and probably happily around me, that's already the greatest fortune one can get.

Christmas day, in the season of giving, I can only hope for Santa Claus to put more empathy, compassion and understanding in all our hearts. That would really be the best gift for everyone around the world. :)

Finally, I truly wish everyone a merry Christmas and let's all put a little more optimism into the depths of our soul. Everything happens for a reason, and every reason results in everything that's going on around us. And since nothing can be changed in the blink of an eye, it wouldn't really hurt to simply view things more positively in the meantime.

Be optimistic and best wishes. :)

Inspiring

I have decided to name this post inspiring because I feel inspired truly by everything that's going on around me.

All of a sudden, everything appears to be so peaceful and in harmony and it feels really good. :) No bad memories appear out of nowhere, and forgiving never felt much easier.

Guess this is probably due to the working at Sentosa which taught me so much about service and understanding and the many outings I had with friends the past few days.

I love the smell of freedom, despite the fact that school might restrain me down the moment school starts due to the immense workload and stuffs but well, there goes the 'Ups and Downs of Life' :)

I'm so tired and happy that so many nice things happens to me. Instead of saying my life is so happening, I guess it's just the existence of precious friends that are irreplaceable. Even though there may have been conflicts, but somehow almost everything have been erased without me knowing, or should I say, it's just time to move on. :)

Yeah, it feels really unreal how our life is slowly ticking away, but I guess that's what make us appreciate life and for those living happily, the amount of courage required for that is something we don't appreciate until we desperately need that courage.

Family and friends, it truly seems our world revolves around them and ourselves, and yet appreciations are not as common as it appears.

I'm frightened at the probability of me forgetting about a old friend due to lack of communications cause of different schools and stuffs but it's just never so easy to bond together when we all have our own life to attend to.

Looking back at life now frightens me, not like I'm some person who is afraid of the past, but the fact that I have lost touch with so many friends whom I promised to meet up soon. Primary School friends, tuition friends, ex-classmates, and ex-ccamates, and even kindergarten friends, it seems I am no longer able to connect everything together like I used to. Now everything revolves around life in Dunman High and that's just too simple, or I just can't find a word for this, living in the now?

我们都是泡沫轻轻一碰就破
　　眼泪是爱的火花
　　昨天就像飞机穿过我的窗口
　　我什么都没有
　　我摊开了双手你予取予求
　　直到你想自由
　　痛苦的时候我不会闪躲
　　就像树叶甘心为春风吹落
　　只是简简单单的爱过
　　我还是我
　　简简单单的想过
　　就不算白活
　　简简单单的疯过
　　被梦带走
　　当故事结束之后
　　心也喜欢一个人寂寞

Haix, guess I really miss my old friends, but meeting up seems almost impossible since I didn't even get any email contacts.

Being optimistic, maybe we might just meet up on the streets or this arrangement is just for the better.

There's nothing worse than forgetting about a treasured friendship, and not realize it until you finally even try to remember about it.

站得太久
　　分岔口怎么去走
　　我够胆孤注一掷
　　完全没有颤抖
　　爱你那段时侯
　　简简单单经已足够
　　到任何东西应有尽有
　　谁还留力舐伤口

　　人生太短出手要更大
　　旁观者不需理解
　　赢得风光豪得精彩
　　自己偏偏感觉失败
　　自尊心都可以出卖
　　忘记我也是无坏
　　连幸福都输掉醉在长街
　　依然是我最大

奇迹太少这生人更大
受伤都不须悔改
垂手可得全个世界
自己的一生却失败
自尊心都可以出卖
　　忘记我也是无坏
　　连幸福都输掉醉在长街
依然是我最大
　　连梦想洒一地再任人踩
　　依然笑得爽快

Everyone's trying to think one step ahead, but it never appeared that one step backwards could be the best solution.

Weird, maybe I'm just tired.

Be optimistic. :) Just don't do something that you would regret. True magic lies in having the courage to do difficult things.

BIRTHDAY SURPRISE ROCKS!!! WORK MADNESS!!! STAYOVERS!!! VIVO!!! TOPMAN!!! FACEBOOK!!!

The past week has been totally madness and chaotic. Holidays are truly HOLIDAYS!!! Loved the birthday surprise by PIPIPAPIPOOPOO!!! Haha fake fake got quarrel cannot celebrate and in the end everyone was waiting at the swimming pool at top floor of vivo!!! LOL!!!

THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!!! AND I LOVED THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS ALTHOUGH ALL DAMN NIAO HAHA!!! :D

Have been working like mad too! Haha with work comes play too of course!!! Had a outing with Jin Wen, Ee Chow and Wei Li to vivo!!! WATCHED THE MOVIE BOLT!!! OMG IT WAS DAMN NICE!!!!!!! BOLT IS LIKE FREAKING CUTE?! HAHAHAHA!!!!!!! DOGS OWNS!!! :D

Went to Topman to get a shirt for $79, personally I think it looks marvelous!!! :D:D:D

And there was a promotion that second shirt gets 50% off and so I helped Por Yee bought the shirt he wanted. Wrong size though gonna replace it later since I go vivo almost everyday now. LOL.

Which reminds me of my eventful trip to Zara before my birthday surprise with Por Yee and how funny it was to try wearing the vests!!! HAHA!!! Soooo wanna get one!!! HAHA!!!

Hmm after that went to Ee Chow house for stayover to play dota and gunbound! LOL! Felt so bored gunbound seems fun! :D

So deprived of sleep nowadays!!! Shall make up for it this Friday when I don't have work!

By the way I'm working at Sentosa Songs of the Seas as an attraction host!!! :D Haha which means I get to see night sentosa almost everyday since I work at night LOL!!! :D

Oh yea, and I'm back to facebook! Haha, suddenly addicted to it LOL!!! And due to a sudden inspiration, I'm watching Zai Shen Yuan again LOL!!! If anyone knows what show is that, it's my favourite show that somehow I can still REMEMBER even after 6 years!!! LOL!!! Haha really funny show! Still trying desperately to watch DESPERATE HOUSEWIVES!!! BUT REALLY NO TIME TO SLOT IN!!! LOL!!!

And I finally got the song Crush in my phone to listen to!!! DAVID ARCHULETA ROCKS!!! :D

BE OPTIMISTIC!!! WORK HARD!!! PLAY HARD!!! REST HARD!!! :D:D:D

BIRTHDAY!!!

ETERNALLY GRATEFUL TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

HAD A GREAT OUTING TODAY!!! LOL BOWLING AND GAMBLING BUT OH WELL!!!

Thank you so much PPPPPP FOR EVERYONE CALLING ME AT MIDNIGHT HAHA!!!!!!! AND FROM MALAYSIA!!!! HAHA AGNES I KNOW ONLY YOU SMS BUT ITS ALRIGHT!!!

AND TO EE CHOW, WEILI, AND JIN WEN THANKS FOR SPENDING MY BIRTHDAY WITH ME!!!

17TH NOW!!! :D:D:D FINALLY!!!

HAHA AND TO ALLL THOSE WHO SMSED ME TOO THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!! (ITS STILL NOT TOO LATE!)

Went to swensens ALONE to get the free ice cream haha so ps but oh well I'm plucked up all my courage just to get the ice cream LOL!!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!! AND BOUGHT NOTHING ELSE!!! :D:D:D

Made alot of wishes today!!! No birthday cake but still super happy heheh!!!

Had been working at Sentosa for soooo many days!!! SENTOSA ROCKS!!! I LOVE BEING AN ATTRACTIONS HOST!!! TALKING TO GUESTS ROCKS!!! :D EVERYONE'S JUST SO NICE!!! ESPECIALLY EVERYONE WORKING THERE TOO!!! :D

Working all the way till friday. Wah hope I don't get too tired haha! Gonna make balloons sculptures!!!

Being happy has no formula, just think happily, and the cloud of judgment floats away automatically!!!

Lol, have been going to PAGEONE to read up on many books!!! Haha read the 48 laws of power book but it's really not for me but at least now I'm more wary! Heheh!!!

BE OPTIMISTIC ALL!!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF!!! <--- AM I THE ONLY ONE WHO DO THAT?! HAHAAHAHAHA!!! :D:D:D:D:D

THANK YOU EVERYONE ONCE AGAIN!!! PLEASE TAG K! HAHA!!!