Firstly, holy crap, it's 3am and I'm alone in my PGP room and I just felt like blogging after blog-stalking! =P
Lol, compared to my previous blogposts, that are mostly damn chillax (talking about games + tv dramas especially TVD), I feel like taking a good look at my life this time! So if you're here to see my childish posts as usual then owww, too bad!
Last time I blogged it was May! So I guess I should just summarize whatever has happened, or should I say major events since I have such a bad memory sometimes!
Went for my operation on 13 June to remove the 6 screws from my left ankle, somehow I felt that this is yet another milestone in my life. As in, this operation yet reminds me of my 2 army years, how I joined Commando PTP, BMT, Medic Course, followed by Basic Airbourne Course which I eventually failed since I fractured my left ankle after 2 jumps. But looking back, I have no idea if I should regret it or not.
Quite a number of friends came to me with this question: If you could go back, would you choose not to break your leg? (Well, not really a choice isit!) However, as I take a step back and look at my life in general, I have to say: I really don't have an answer to that.
All in all, life has been good to me and I'm really grateful for that. I've met countless of people who've helped me in my life, countless of awesome friends who have and will always be there for me (vice-versa), lucky events somehow happening to me (Although I feel that my optimistic nature makes me view most stuffs as lucky anyways), and my nice family who is always there for me. (Although I don't communicate much with my family members, somehow I just feel happy knowing that they have full faith and trust in me and my actions in life.)
So looking back, at the point of my life where I had to see through all my batch mate's ORD parade, a huge pang went through my heart. The moment where all the regrets came flowing through... How I wished I had not fractured my leg, how I wished I could have completed my entire Commando journey with them, completing 72km route march, completing Brunei/Taiwan outfield with them, having fun toughing things out. I have always repressed all those emotions within me, since what's the point of letting people know I had those feelings? I would rather be viewed as the happy-go-lucky guy who took things in his stride and not looking back. But who wouldn't have regrets in life? And even now, there's a part of me that is telling me to just move on with it, which I truly believe I have just by looking at the opportunity cost of these events.
Some people might say I'm lucky, taking a 3 months off break from army due to MC, and I'm slightly ashamed to say I agree too. As in I never viewed myself as the slacker kind/want to take the easy way out kind, but the 3 months at home was really kinda sorta awesome ain't it?! But my leg fracture brought me to Hendon Medical Centre where I met really awesome friends like Zi Xiang, Neil, Yong Ze, Yang Zhi, Kenneth and my buddy and so on. These are friends that I may/may not be close with if I hadn't fractured my leg, which made me wonder if it was truly fate that guided me to this bunch of awesome friends?
Sometimes, when Yong Ze tells me how appreciative he is of me that I was there in the Medical Centre to accompany him through this journey, it honestly makes me ponder if this was part of the reason why I fractured my leg. I'm not one to believe in destiny or fate usually, but somehow the saying that fates intertwines always ring a truth to me.
Plus my permanent disability compensation was a big aid for my journey in university where I could take off my parent's burden of paying my uni tuition fees. Passing my mum 5k for my brother's tuition fees/her europe trip was really awesome too. Made me feel more mature, more grown, more independent.
Furthermore, after my not-so-awesome polyclinic work experience, life has rewarded me with an internship with theaardvark which has made me so happy. It was an eye-opener for me and allowed me to learn so much more about the working world, which always made me wonder: What exactly are we fighting for? And how are we going to fight for it?
It was a work-from-home internship but the best part is still the fact that both my bosses are such nice people! Really awesome I must say! They totally empathized with me that I was going back to Uni and said I could take a break anytime and go back anytime to help out too. To know that they have such confidence and trust in me has always made me feel a lot better about myself. Furthermore, they rewarded me well for a job well done during my internship and I was really surprised and touched! Made me feel that the efforts in the weekends and at night are totally worthwhile!
And so after my operation and my work internship, the next big thing would be... Psychology Camp? Haha well, I must say that I'm really grateful for the friends that I kept in contact with ALOT after the camp, and that is Daniel and Cassandra aka Tom! (Talk on whatsapp till 5am leh! That's a first for me! =P) Xin Rong is another good friend whom I would remember from the camp!
Psych camp was my first camp for uni life and quite an eye-opener for me. It actually opened my eyes wider to see human superficiality as it is, and how realistic people can get. But it also taught me that there are really nice people out there, that makes a difference to your life someway or another! :)
Phuket trip was next! And how I wish I could post all the photos up now, but stupid Jin Tong is still procrastinating on it! Pfft!
Phuket trip was quite enjoyable I must say, the last big holiday before Uni life begins and for me, it was a transition period to this hectic lifestyle of NUS. And this is where I'm proud to say that the massage, spa, water sports, pedicure and manicure were just so damn freaking AWESOME!
The company was especially great too! :) Although there are weird/awkward moments for me on this trip when I got moody, somehow things just kept getting better towards the end. I certainly hope that the end of this phuket trip would not signify the end of this friendship as uni life comes to a startling start. Have heard a lot of stories about how hard it is to maintain old friendships after uni starts, and I really want to keep this friendship going on even if Dong Hang is going overseas for his studies and Jin Tong is still advancing his career in culinary and Jin Wen being busy with his new group of close friends and his studies!
Lol not worried about Ee Chow since I know he will be a friend for life automatically so can heck care! =P Five Gooloodoons FTW! =D (6 too in case Yun Xiu feels left out! =P)
After the phuket trip was O week! And wow how this could prove to be a giant turning point for my life! Made a bunch of really close friends, especially Abraham and Givon since we are like neighbours! I know that my parents were shocked when I said I wanted to move into Prince George's Park Residence, but how could I resist staying in PRINCE george's park residence! HAHA! JKJK! But they were all shocked initially since I was the one who was against the idea of staying in hall, but residence = no hall commitments! So here I am!!!
Anyways O-week made me feel really lucky that I didn't attend Arts Camp! Not that I wouldn't enjoy arts camp, but I wouldn't be able to join my dear A5 group as a true freshie and I know how big a difference that would make! Initially, I regretted not attending Arts Camp since it was directly after my leg op and I couldn't even walk properly, but now... heheh, NO REGRETS AT ALL LO!
Met really similar friends like Kayley who watches Masterchef and listens to alot of awesome songs that I like too, generally quite similar frequency la! Haha! Can click really well!!!
Givon who is supppeeerrrr nice and friendly and bitchy in general! Haha spoke with her for 3 hours straight at PGP swing area after eating KFC for 3 hours straight without any awkward pauses! A really awesome friend indeed! And since she's my neighbor in PGP, seeing her everyday until SIANS liao la HAHA! (Getting back at her for always niaoing me about this!) Still always go for all our lectures together la, a good PGP pal indeed! =P If not for her, I wouldn't join PGP lor since our application was the day before school started and everything was a BIG RUSH! =D Never regretted that choice though! President!
Abraham who became my closest guy friend in my OG! Not that I couldn't hang out with the rest, but the conversation with him just flows so much more smoothly! Must really thank him for staying at PGP first and being our lab rat and introducing us to join after that! THANKS AR! And also for being there during O-week (Not there most of the time pfft!) for me to talk to! Haha will always remember how the two of us just ran off from the group for dinner while the rest of the OG was having fun OOPS! Really glad to know him as a friend and to know that I can trust him somehow! My instincts are usually right anyways! =P Introducing him to TVD now and knowing that he would get addicted automatically anyways haha! STOREMAN!
The three of us PGP pals must really mug more together!!!
And also Jasmine and Jia Hui and Sandy and so on! Really awesome and funny friends that I've met! Haha, Jasmine the stylohotmilo, Jia Hui the quiet vegetarian and Sandy the brutally honest gal! WE NEED MORE OUTINGS TOGETHER LA!!! =D USS NEXT!
Wah almost 4am le! Oops! Anyways, I don't really feel like talking about cors bidding/tutorial balloting since it's all over! Didn't get all I want but since I'm staying PGP, everything's fine! =P
Oh and O-week made me reveal my bitchy side, but in daily life, I'm really just a normal ordinary guy who doesn't bitch a lot and is rather shy surprisingly! =)
Other really important stuffs would include Agnes's farewell! Have fun in L.A. and Canada!!! PPPPPP MISSES YOU GREATLY!
Kuang Nan my really good pal has also flown to U.S as well! Will really miss you and your funny antics! Please come back and visit us soon!
Sucks that a bunch of my close friends I've made during army are going overseas for their studies, hopefully all the bonds and connections would remain please!
Also, I attended NUSSU Save camp last Saturday! Really last minute join, like two days before the camp and that was when I was randomly searching for another CCA! And I must say I didn't regret it at all! Surprisingly Team Electric won Best OG! WOOTS!
Really proud of ourselves and I told myself I would join Save3rees to help plant more trees and guide nature trails! (Like my Conservation Ambassador job at the Zoo!) =D Would really love to get into the sub-committee to help out a lot more too!
After that was our amazing Brave Movie outing!!! Haha really fun outing since I forced everyone to camwhore alot! And generally camwhore quite well la! Still went francfranc after that to see expensive jap stuff, hanging out at Daiso for cheap jap stuffs, and finally sipping Gong Cha at the boardwalk! Love you all la! =D
Last but not least, I signed up for Psychology Society Prep Camp! Had to forsake Mei Yun's 21st birthday party since it's a complete clash... but I really want to learn more about exco and joining this big family! Sorry Mei Yun but this really means a lot to me! And I really want to test out my potential even more in Uni by taking up more leadership roles!
Taking a page out of the inspiring speech made by the NUSSU Save alumni: When you graduate, it's really nothing much since there are thousands of people out there like you who have the same piece of paper. What truly makes a difference is the experience, the knowledge and skills you've gained from participating in stuffs outside of your academic studies during your university life.
Have known this for a long time but I really want to put myself to the test and bring out the best of me and really serve the club well!
Contract bridge was fine, so hopefully it will get better? =X
Lastly, can't wait for windsurfing course to start! Haha damn! 4 CCAs are gonna burn me out! Better mug more during the weekends! BB OUTINGS!!! =D And I'm still thinking of joining Entrepreneur society! Shall see how then!!! =D
Went for Dong Hang's piano recital today too followed by supper at Brozeit with Six GOOLOODOONS and skipped out on a full army outing! But this performance is really important since Dong Hang is leaving for overseas studies soon too! Video on Facebook! =D Sorry army pals! =(
Okay it's 4+am and I have a long day of mugging ahead of me!
Be optimistic all! As I have experienced, life generally gets better since it's all a matter of perspective!
Regrets only foster when you take the time to ponder over it, instead of regrets, I call them precious memories. :)
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