Wooooo!!! Finally... I got through the Battle of the Wits Weiqi competition at SP Concourse! Had to travel to dover every morning to fight and fight and it's just soooo tiring!
So shuang that I won 3 out of 7 matches! And our team got 2 wins!!! Considering Ee Chow won one and Jin Tong walked over another match haha!!! And I contributed to both of those so that the team could win haha!
Although I'm quite disappointed at some people (Or PERSON) for so easily breaking their promise, but well, why vex over it. :)
This competition was so similar to the tournament I was in last month. Meeting so many familiar faces, people I won and people I lost too, and we remember each other so clearly! But I guess I'm just too unlucky, facing the 2nd strongest player out of 128 players last month and yesterday, I was against the strongest player in the whole tournament.
Like what the heck, I got thrashed :)
Although there were also some unfriendly teams in the competition, overall everyone was great and we get along really well haha! Really fun to walk to Macdonald's and see my previous opponent and we start saying hi to one another lol! So freaking cool haha!!!
My team position was 19th out of 24 teams! :) Soooo proud of that, considering Jin Tong played his first match yesterday for the first time during the competition and we had to depend on me and Ee Chow to win before we could win any round at all la haha! :D But we can see that Jin Tong is really improving from this competition haha! Same for me and Ee Chow too! Unlike someone who don't ever bother trying lalala
Oh, and mind sports juniors were really great too! Especially Gerald and Yang Shen for being so damn funny during the competition haha! Although my ex clarinet juniors were still great too LOL! When the hell would our 3rds outing come again though... -_- Chloe ORGANISE!
Oh and just for something extraordinary! On my way home, I walked past my void deck and there was a little boy walking there and a cat was trying to go near the little boy! And so the boy seemed a little afraid but went to sit down and the cat sat next to him and the boy patted the cat's head. Haha I didn't care if my lift came, I just had to look at the boy patting the stray cat :)
Haha and the boy seems to have strong spiritual power! LOL I can sense it when he stared at me when I was peeking at them haha!!! (And what was a little boy around 7 years old doing walking around in the void deck at 9.30?! WEIRD!)
How fun, but well I will only hope for a dog to come near me, not really fond of cats :)
Oh well be optimistic all! Learning from mistakes and not repeating them by changing one's self, shall learn to achieve that and apply it in life :) Hope everyone do so too.
In the mood for watching Digimon but I guess I will only watch the show after my promos. Shall start mugging and attain my goals! No more playing!!! :)
Shall get Digimon world 1 for PS1 from anyone who has it, and start raising a Digimon! After my promos, off I go into the digimon world haha!!!
Missed waff carnival today since my competition ended late, but well I had fun and no doubt gained alot of experience. And seriously, my experience refers to playing with players other people dream to play with, and I would be the FORTUNATE one who gets to play with them. (And get thrashed)
Shall be more enthusiastic in mind sports!!! After all, I only have mind sports and culinary club as my CCAs, shall put in more effort for both these CCAs!!!
BE OPTIMISTIC EVERYONE!!!
Sunday, July 13, 2008
Friday, July 11, 2008
Memories
This post shall be about memories.
Memories are really what presents life to us in the most lovely way. Be it sad memories, happy memories, lovely memories or bad memories, without them, we would be nothing.
Memories constitute who we are and makes me feel that no matter how down life can be, one simple memory would bring me to the right track again. People change, but memories don't. They are there for a lifetime, just like a scar, just that you are proud of this scar.
Now I'm reminiscing about this week. Everyday was just another normal day, maybe some gossips here and there, some laughter here and there and some ap-ness everywhere.
Well, I really like my class a lot, but I feel that there is just no time for interaction between everyone and there isn't even time for us to all sit down together and just chat. School is where you meet your friends, but the hectic schedule we're going through everyday is just not bringing about the common casual chat everyone should have everyday.
Fortunately, I always have friends to rely upon, although we don't talk much(Seriously), but we know deep in our heart that whenever anyone of us gets into trouble or needs help, we would be there for one another.
Really wanna have a PPPPPP/nEPLAY/Ex-Class/Class outing soon! Need a break from this crazy lifestyle of studying and doing homework. Although I'm still not mugging seriously yet, and is constantly trying to finish watching gossip girl, but I'm already very tired from what I call a mad life full of studying and lectures and tutorials.
Memories, I really had many kinds of memories in PPPPPP outings and other class outings. While walking past katong laksa just now, more memories jolted me, and that gave me happiness from within. While walking home to my house at bedok from another 12 Bus Stop, more memories jolted me once again, and that made me feel like a teenager who is so easily contented by simple memories that are just so amazing.
Wanna relive those moments again, but well people change, and I think that maybe I have changed too. How I wish everything would go back to what they were before easily :)
When you look back, you always wonder why everything couldn't remain the same, but when you look again, they have never been gone, since they will forever remain in your heart. And that is something nothing can erase. So let's create joyful memories as much as we can since we can't change the past, but we can create the future.
Really wanna post pictures on my blog but I never seem to be able to find the picture I want to put :( Haha, please send me pictures with me inside! Stupid samantha posting such a bad picture of me doing physics practical during sports carnival. I was forced to k! Zzz! -_-
Okay then. Be optimistic all!!! Have Wei Qi competition tomorrow! Hope I get the results I want haha!!! :D
Memories are really what presents life to us in the most lovely way. Be it sad memories, happy memories, lovely memories or bad memories, without them, we would be nothing.
Memories constitute who we are and makes me feel that no matter how down life can be, one simple memory would bring me to the right track again. People change, but memories don't. They are there for a lifetime, just like a scar, just that you are proud of this scar.
Now I'm reminiscing about this week. Everyday was just another normal day, maybe some gossips here and there, some laughter here and there and some ap-ness everywhere.
Well, I really like my class a lot, but I feel that there is just no time for interaction between everyone and there isn't even time for us to all sit down together and just chat. School is where you meet your friends, but the hectic schedule we're going through everyday is just not bringing about the common casual chat everyone should have everyday.
Fortunately, I always have friends to rely upon, although we don't talk much(Seriously), but we know deep in our heart that whenever anyone of us gets into trouble or needs help, we would be there for one another.
Really wanna have a PPPPPP/nEPLAY/Ex-Class/Class outing soon! Need a break from this crazy lifestyle of studying and doing homework. Although I'm still not mugging seriously yet, and is constantly trying to finish watching gossip girl, but I'm already very tired from what I call a mad life full of studying and lectures and tutorials.
Memories, I really had many kinds of memories in PPPPPP outings and other class outings. While walking past katong laksa just now, more memories jolted me, and that gave me happiness from within. While walking home to my house at bedok from another 12 Bus Stop, more memories jolted me once again, and that made me feel like a teenager who is so easily contented by simple memories that are just so amazing.
Wanna relive those moments again, but well people change, and I think that maybe I have changed too. How I wish everything would go back to what they were before easily :)
When you look back, you always wonder why everything couldn't remain the same, but when you look again, they have never been gone, since they will forever remain in your heart. And that is something nothing can erase. So let's create joyful memories as much as we can since we can't change the past, but we can create the future.
Really wanna post pictures on my blog but I never seem to be able to find the picture I want to put :( Haha, please send me pictures with me inside! Stupid samantha posting such a bad picture of me doing physics practical during sports carnival. I was forced to k! Zzz! -_-
Okay then. Be optimistic all!!! Have Wei Qi competition tomorrow! Hope I get the results I want haha!!! :D
Saturday, July 05, 2008
ORYX OWN!
Firstly, ORYX OWNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha thats my house!!! ORYX!!! THE UNICORNS LOL!
Feel so proud of my badge, the purple badge, 1st for round island!!!
Yesterday was the Dunman High Senior High Sports Carnival, and it was full of sports activities, which caused me to cheer so much I lost my voice somehow haha!
And it's really so cool that ORYX won the majority HAHA!!! And I feel so happy that our round island team did not disappoint the house by receiving first position! :D
Haha, my team in the afternoon included: Mei Yun, Jazreen, Jing Huan, Gena, Ying Xian and me! Haha, we really chiong like mad and didn't bother feeling embarrassed at all.
Overall, the sports carnival was really enjoyable!
Had lots of fun, haha thrown all my troubles behind me.
:D Smiling as always...
BE OPTIMISTIC ALL!
Haha thats my house!!! ORYX!!! THE UNICORNS LOL!
Feel so proud of my badge, the purple badge, 1st for round island!!!
Yesterday was the Dunman High Senior High Sports Carnival, and it was full of sports activities, which caused me to cheer so much I lost my voice somehow haha!
And it's really so cool that ORYX won the majority HAHA!!! And I feel so happy that our round island team did not disappoint the house by receiving first position! :D
Haha, my team in the afternoon included: Mei Yun, Jazreen, Jing Huan, Gena, Ying Xian and me! Haha, we really chiong like mad and didn't bother feeling embarrassed at all.
Overall, the sports carnival was really enjoyable!
Had lots of fun, haha thrown all my troubles behind me.
:D Smiling as always...
BE OPTIMISTIC ALL!
Thursday, July 03, 2008
Weirdified DREAMS
Just one short week, and it has passed so suddenly. Still owe my homework which I'm so not willing to do. So much to study, if only I had a time machine :D
Shall sleep earlier nowadays, haha just got this from dreammoods.com.
To see someone dying in your dream, signifies that your feelings for that person are dead or that a significant change/loss is occurring in your relationship with that person. Alternatively, you may want to repress that aspect of yourself that is represented by the dying person.
To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, it indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life.
Dreams of death often occur as a result of great stress caused by relationships, school, career changes, depression or by the approach of death itself. Death in dreams may also be viewed as a metaphor - as a new beginning or a time of renewal.
Well, I have no idea whom I saw dying, but it sure alarmed me greatly. After I woke up, I felt so relieved that none of my close one passed away that I felt that like wtf? All the troubles I'm facing now are like so damn minor compared to that! Haha maybe this is truly a new beginning or a time of renewal for me.
Had personal grooming lessons today in school followed by an mock interview. Blehs, I cannot believe I did not get any excellent haha! And worse I got one average and one needs improvement and thats in pacing. I felt that I was talking at normal speed haha! And for the handshake which I got average, I just felt it weird to shake hands so tightly when her grip was so soft obviously.
But well, it was a really great experience and I must say I was quite nervous. :)
Interviewer was Ms Sarah haha! Our class was so fortunate :D
Time Travel
To dream about time travel, indicates your wish to escape from your present reality. You want to go back into the past or jump forward to the future to a period where your hopes are realized. This type also represents your romantic nature or your desire to romanticize everything.
LOL, I had a time travel dream two days ago too. Only remembered it to be interesting and fun. Haha my subconscious is getting sooo messy dreams are coming back to me again.
Shall start to learn to enjoy sleeping, and the fun it brings me. Compared to playing dota late into the night, why not enjoy a quiet and nice night. :)
Everyone is becoming complicated, expected that, but still don't like the way things are going.
Hope tomorrow will be fun. Haha participating in the round island thingy. I had better get ready for tomorrow soon before starting my lovely sleeps.
Shall not get pissed off easily, since I'm so wasting my energy being pissed off. Shall be a happy person once again! :)
Good night all! (This statement can bring back much memories)
Be optimistic! Hope everyone get sweet dreams!!! :D
Shall sleep earlier nowadays, haha just got this from dreammoods.com.
To see someone dying in your dream, signifies that your feelings for that person are dead or that a significant change/loss is occurring in your relationship with that person. Alternatively, you may want to repress that aspect of yourself that is represented by the dying person.
To dream about the death of a loved one, suggests that you are lacking a certain aspect or quality that the loved one embodies. Ask yourself what makes this person special or what do you like about him. It is that very quality that you are lacking in your own relationship or circumstances. Alternatively, it indicates that whatever that person represents has no part in your own life.
Dreams of death often occur as a result of great stress caused by relationships, school, career changes, depression or by the approach of death itself. Death in dreams may also be viewed as a metaphor - as a new beginning or a time of renewal.
Well, I have no idea whom I saw dying, but it sure alarmed me greatly. After I woke up, I felt so relieved that none of my close one passed away that I felt that like wtf? All the troubles I'm facing now are like so damn minor compared to that! Haha maybe this is truly a new beginning or a time of renewal for me.
Had personal grooming lessons today in school followed by an mock interview. Blehs, I cannot believe I did not get any excellent haha! And worse I got one average and one needs improvement and thats in pacing. I felt that I was talking at normal speed haha! And for the handshake which I got average, I just felt it weird to shake hands so tightly when her grip was so soft obviously.
But well, it was a really great experience and I must say I was quite nervous. :)
Interviewer was Ms Sarah haha! Our class was so fortunate :D
Time Travel
To dream about time travel, indicates your wish to escape from your present reality. You want to go back into the past or jump forward to the future to a period where your hopes are realized. This type also represents your romantic nature or your desire to romanticize everything.
LOL, I had a time travel dream two days ago too. Only remembered it to be interesting and fun. Haha my subconscious is getting sooo messy dreams are coming back to me again.
Shall start to learn to enjoy sleeping, and the fun it brings me. Compared to playing dota late into the night, why not enjoy a quiet and nice night. :)
Everyone is becoming complicated, expected that, but still don't like the way things are going.
Hope tomorrow will be fun. Haha participating in the round island thingy. I had better get ready for tomorrow soon before starting my lovely sleeps.
Shall not get pissed off easily, since I'm so wasting my energy being pissed off. Shall be a happy person once again! :)
Good night all! (This statement can bring back much memories)
Be optimistic! Hope everyone get sweet dreams!!! :D
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
Hard.
It is always after the happiest moment that sadness arrives, and when you are so caught up in it, the happiness that came before will never be reflected upon again. But every time the sadness arrives, the memories of them are never washed away.
One of my best friends told me to ask myself: what am I fighting for? Seriously, I seem to have no idea and it feels like I'm fighting for nothing, which makes everything meaningless. When you don't have a goal, things become so much harder to tackle and it's even harder to just get a better view of things.
Promised myself not to feel this way, and I remember occasions of this promise throughout my past blog posts, but sadness seems to always supersede happiness.
I know you know, since I don't believe in my inability to express myself so openly. A fake smile is hard, but a true smile is even harder. That's what I meant by the truth gets in the way of lies. Sometimes, you just want to continuing lying to yourself since the truth just hurts more than it seems.
Either I'm being emotionally immature, or I'm thinking into things too deeply to blind myself from the truth. Whatever it is, this is considered another lesson learnt, and however hard it is, I will not be convinced that life sucks, life goes on and I shall await the surprises it brings me.
No matter how hard the going can be, I know I'm not walking through all these alone. Compared to many others, I'm the fortunate one. If I still fail to learn from my mistake, I will not only be disappointing myself but also many around me.
Thanks lots for all the support I received during my times of need from most of my friends and allowing myself to express my innermost thoughts to the people I trust is all I need to feel somehow better.
Although I don't really know if anyone truly understand my feelings, but if they truly do understand, I hope they can also express it to me and don't feel shy about it. I want quality in terms of friendship, not quantity, and I'm so fortunate I found quality in quantities.
If you truly think you're the one I'm referring to, please take the initiative to clarify matters. I don't want all action and no talk since actions might not reflect the truth. Although I always act like I don't notice small issues, the fact is that they get to me as much as they can get to you. Not pointing them out doesn't mean I'm ignoring whatever is happening. I just hope someone would take the initiative and I don't want to be the one to do so, since when has it not been my job to do so every time something goes wrong?
So happy that there was no school today, and we had interview lessons and dining etiquette lessons. Everything was quite fun, although I can only enjoy them on the surface during this phase.
Life can really be so hard that you find it hard to breath in, and that gives me the urge to want to merge with nature somehow and begin my meditation. It feels really good to be alone at times and just communing with nature seems to cure all wounds, just as how time heal all wounds.
In 10 years time, this incident would certainly not be within my everyday attention, but I do know the scar left behind will forever be there. And whenever a wound near the scar is found, everything comes back to haunt you somehow. Getting that feeling currently, seriously, why is my subconscious making me withstand such emotional trauma again and again.
Maybe this is truly the quest to the truth, and in order to carry on in my life, I have to understand the truth and walk through it.
Somehow, while I'm at home, the only joy I receive currently is by looking at my birthday presents. They mean so much to me seriously and I love every single one of them especially my favorite pink pooh. :)
Somehow, I would love to be optimistic this time, but there's nothing to be optimistic about other than the fact that I learnt another good lesson in life. I might not seem to appreciate the small efforts put in, but in truth I do, and with this, I'm giving much gratitude and apologies to the people around me. Love you all. :)
Hope tomorrow will be the start of something new, and please don't let fate keep me chained in the past. I need to move on, and I know I will. With your support, nothing is impossible for me. :) I believe in trust and I believe trust constitutes all my ideals. After all, being idealistic is my forte. :) Love you forever. :)
To Zanarkand is such a cool song. In case you have no idea, you're listening to it right now. Heheh, I love the song so much, seems to me that I can now relate to this song even better. :) Maybe I have moved on in life after all.
Be optimistic all! :)
One of my best friends told me to ask myself: what am I fighting for? Seriously, I seem to have no idea and it feels like I'm fighting for nothing, which makes everything meaningless. When you don't have a goal, things become so much harder to tackle and it's even harder to just get a better view of things.
Promised myself not to feel this way, and I remember occasions of this promise throughout my past blog posts, but sadness seems to always supersede happiness.
I know you know, since I don't believe in my inability to express myself so openly. A fake smile is hard, but a true smile is even harder. That's what I meant by the truth gets in the way of lies. Sometimes, you just want to continuing lying to yourself since the truth just hurts more than it seems.
Either I'm being emotionally immature, or I'm thinking into things too deeply to blind myself from the truth. Whatever it is, this is considered another lesson learnt, and however hard it is, I will not be convinced that life sucks, life goes on and I shall await the surprises it brings me.
No matter how hard the going can be, I know I'm not walking through all these alone. Compared to many others, I'm the fortunate one. If I still fail to learn from my mistake, I will not only be disappointing myself but also many around me.
Thanks lots for all the support I received during my times of need from most of my friends and allowing myself to express my innermost thoughts to the people I trust is all I need to feel somehow better.
Although I don't really know if anyone truly understand my feelings, but if they truly do understand, I hope they can also express it to me and don't feel shy about it. I want quality in terms of friendship, not quantity, and I'm so fortunate I found quality in quantities.
If you truly think you're the one I'm referring to, please take the initiative to clarify matters. I don't want all action and no talk since actions might not reflect the truth. Although I always act like I don't notice small issues, the fact is that they get to me as much as they can get to you. Not pointing them out doesn't mean I'm ignoring whatever is happening. I just hope someone would take the initiative and I don't want to be the one to do so, since when has it not been my job to do so every time something goes wrong?
So happy that there was no school today, and we had interview lessons and dining etiquette lessons. Everything was quite fun, although I can only enjoy them on the surface during this phase.
Life can really be so hard that you find it hard to breath in, and that gives me the urge to want to merge with nature somehow and begin my meditation. It feels really good to be alone at times and just communing with nature seems to cure all wounds, just as how time heal all wounds.
In 10 years time, this incident would certainly not be within my everyday attention, but I do know the scar left behind will forever be there. And whenever a wound near the scar is found, everything comes back to haunt you somehow. Getting that feeling currently, seriously, why is my subconscious making me withstand such emotional trauma again and again.
Maybe this is truly the quest to the truth, and in order to carry on in my life, I have to understand the truth and walk through it.
Somehow, while I'm at home, the only joy I receive currently is by looking at my birthday presents. They mean so much to me seriously and I love every single one of them especially my favorite pink pooh. :)
Somehow, I would love to be optimistic this time, but there's nothing to be optimistic about other than the fact that I learnt another good lesson in life. I might not seem to appreciate the small efforts put in, but in truth I do, and with this, I'm giving much gratitude and apologies to the people around me. Love you all. :)
Hope tomorrow will be the start of something new, and please don't let fate keep me chained in the past. I need to move on, and I know I will. With your support, nothing is impossible for me. :) I believe in trust and I believe trust constitutes all my ideals. After all, being idealistic is my forte. :) Love you forever. :)
To Zanarkand is such a cool song. In case you have no idea, you're listening to it right now. Heheh, I love the song so much, seems to me that I can now relate to this song even better. :) Maybe I have moved on in life after all.
Be optimistic all! :)
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
Sick.
Down with bad flu today. Bad stomachache and slept till 12pm lol.
And while visiting the doctor, received a bad sms. Received news that my PW presentation was totally screwed or something.
Haix, I really have no idea what to do about this project, if only some people can put in more effort...
Is it really that hard to contribute, I don't want to be pissed off and go all serious about it...
Maybe I should really go serious :)
Shall finish the rest of Gossip Girl episodes tonight lol. Don't judge the show by the name :) It's a really cool and fun and dramatic show haha! Plus they have really great and new songs in every episode like Apologize? Come Home? Haha the show rocks.
Anyways, be optimistic everyone. I shall not get held back by such minor problems in my life :) Shall sleep earlier today, after all, I'm really sick :)
And while visiting the doctor, received a bad sms. Received news that my PW presentation was totally screwed or something.
Haix, I really have no idea what to do about this project, if only some people can put in more effort...
Is it really that hard to contribute, I don't want to be pissed off and go all serious about it...
Maybe I should really go serious :)
Shall finish the rest of Gossip Girl episodes tonight lol. Don't judge the show by the name :) It's a really cool and fun and dramatic show haha! Plus they have really great and new songs in every episode like Apologize? Come Home? Haha the show rocks.
Anyways, be optimistic everyone. I shall not get held back by such minor problems in my life :) Shall sleep earlier today, after all, I'm really sick :)
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