Sex and the City!

OMG, I never knew one could really live life to the fullest till now!

All this time, it has just been me going with the flow, you know being nonchalant to everything going on around me, okay not completely nonchalant, but not putting my emotions fully into stuffs. Somehow, I've been able to keep all my emotions within me, and it feels good to be empowered now to do all the things I've always wanted to do.

I guess this MC really brought something into my life that I've never tried to delve into. You know it's like keeping something within you, but you don't really know what is it. Haha I'm confusing myself!

Just a few months back, while I was still a fully able person free to walk around at the Yi Shun Mall (Okay I can't even remember the mall's name, Northpoint?!) and I watched this awesome movie Sex and the City 2 with my awesome army pals. The movie was just hilarious, and thought-provoking at the same time. It allowed me to ponder the question seriously, just what have I been doing with my life?

And at that point of time, I promised myself to watch Sex and the City movie 1! And I told myself that one day I would go home on a weekend to just watch the movie. But well things got in the way, unable to find the movie online, outings after outings, and just tons of activities (Like dota which I really enjoy playing with my friends as a form of recreational activity to tell myself I have not lost contact with them) I keep telling myself to take a break from.

It's like this identity I'm trying to impose onto myself, not that I would be sick of it. And also I know that I would die if all the outings were put on hold and I couldn't meet all my great friends. But it's just that I want to take a break sometimes, which would enable me to have the time to find myself, and yet I still want others to believe that I'm still the same old Jon Teo who is always there to go for outings/organize them and just fun to be around.

And as cruel a jest fates put it, the world turned on itself for me when I broke my leg during the fking parachute jump. But even then, I told myself not to wallow into despair since the optimistic me told me this could be a good break. Which unexpectedly, it was.

Firstly, without this breaking of my left ankle and hence a permanent scar there, I would never notice the love my parents had for me when they rushed down to the hospital multiple times to sign my anesthetic papers for my operation. As in, these were things I always took for granted and honestly, I felt that I have always been living by myself all these years. As in family love was not really a great part of me since I've always wanted to be independent asap. (I wonder why, maybe cause I have 4 nephews?) And hence the multiple part-time jobs I took so that I do not have to get pocket money from my parents at all, and I felt that that was a kind of repayment to them for their love of me all those years.

But honestly, could love ever be repaid?

Maybe that was a lack of insight on my part, but still, those jobs brought me countless experiences I could never hope that I never had them. :)

Next, this MC allowed me to do things I've always wanted to do since I'm at home 24/7. Simple things like watching series dramas which I told myself I could never finish since I never had the patience to during the weekend. Reliving the life of lying on the couch (Literally have to lie since I cannot sit) and just watching the television for the whole freaking day. Style network, fashion tv, tvb drama, series dramas, cartoons and animes, it's just so reminiscent and watching them felt like I was mending a hole in my heart by stuffing things back in! (OH AND TALKING TO ALL MY GREAT FRIENDS ON MSN :D)

And amazingly, I just finished watching Sex and the City movie 1! And that was when a week or two back, I was randomly flipping channels when I chanced upon the final season of Sex and the City! And also, the final few episodes!!! Call it fate or coincidence, but I felt it was really destiny. Although I did read a article somehow that there's a term for such things, like how 2 unrelated event can be connected to make it seem like a miracle. Aiya whatever la, anyways so that's really cool!

And so I just finished watching the movie and it was awesome, like seriously. And I actually fulfilled one goal which I set out to do a few months back. And this feeling of accomplishment of finally doing something that you always told yourself to do is really amazing!

And the feeling of just doing what you want to do instead of things you think people feel you should do rocks!

And crazily enough, I'm actually working out at home sometimes! I know the notion of Jon Teo working out sounds totally crazy but I am! Even I'm shocked myself! With a broken leg, its still possible to do push ups by putting one leg upon another lol! Haha I guess this is due to my nice army instructors who kept on pushing me on even when I was totally weak (Seriously fitness like shit la) when I first enlisted and could not do any chin-ups EVEN after one and a half months.

So thank you to all who have helped me live my life better! Haha it really feels good to be grateful, shall be more grateful in the future!

And well, I still have tons to post about but I guess that's all for now!

Be optimistic all! :D

P.S Don't watch Sex and the City unless you are over 18 LOL. Oh and I finally find that it's time to move on. :)